Ogden Avenue

stand on the sidewalk

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 16:11:52 GMT

passive defensive
half drunk but more tired
forever entangled
with killars and liers

points of view

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 17:54:01 GMT

the deepest and most treacherous hole
is what we've spent two long years digging
with masochistic good intentions

we can salvage this

sundays

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 18:17:49 GMT

could lie in bed and read all day
window open, heat cranked
perfect balance, warm and fresh
bright and hopeful, yawn and stretch
new words on every page
entwined in blankets, enjoying the silence
tell me your stories, now listen to mine
i'd re-write everything
except for this morning

detach

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 19:37:02 GMT

self preservation; my latest addiction
break it down, dissecct, inspect,
poke it with a stick, see if it's dead
seems to be, but you never bled

don't even try to understand

shooting stars

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 15:45:04 GMT

you wrap your legs around me
and say you have no soul

when she's had too much to drink

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 22:11:31 GMT

how strange
and this is how it ends

there's so much more than you can see

but it doesn't matter
because if you can't see it, then it doesn't exist to you
but what if I know that there's something
but I can't prove it,
can't share it
can't show it
what happens when there's a surprise
something you didn't know
something you didn't see
because it was hidden from you all along
did it not exist, even though you never knew about it
was it not real, even though it was kept secret
how many things are out there,
unknown
undiscovered
how many hearts are breaking
because they can't speak
because they can't sing
because they are tangled up in a mess
that they can't find a way out of

there's so much more than you can see

how strange
and this is how it ends

so long to what's done

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 03:05:02 GMT

sit up quietly, alongside me,
headlights reflecting in your big brown eyes
cutting through the dark night,
searching and illuminating,
but we're safe back here,
no one can see us now
your hand rests on mine
sychronized heartbeats,
perfect rhythm between us
you're more precious in the moonlight
almost scared to touch you
almost terrified to move at all
we'll watch the cars pass by
sitting side by side
it's too bad the ending came
before the story had a chance to start

bound for nowhere

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 01:37:42 GMT

you got to know when to hold ’em, know when to fold ’em,
know when to walk away, know when to run..

let me fall

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 02:40:16 GMT

we've done it all wrong
messed up every single line
ruined every single scene

we've wrecked the whole thing

this time last year

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 21:03:11 GMT

missing your depressive tones
your stoned brown eyes
your crooked tooth
missing rides in your grey car
your passenger seat
your hand on my thigh
missing the way you'd look at me
your desperate loneliness
your disapproval

missing the heartache of knowing you

goodbye old friend
we won't think of all that could have been
we won't speak of all that should have been

good bye old friend

no one ever said

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 19:59:30 GMT

[NEED] want, desire, crave, require
[WASTE] squander, misuse, discard
[PURGE] rid, cleanse, eliminate, remove, expell
[FIX] repair, mend, resolve

the undertoe effect

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 23:57:39 GMT

"i'm like a kid in a candy shop, and you're the candy"

it's the eyes
the perfect symmetry
looking up at me
watching me stand in front of you
why doesn't this work
question of the moment
what pulls you back every time
what pulls you out of my bed
out of my reach
for a while
and just when i'm ready
to give up on you
you look at me again

you said you'd jump out the window with me
you say all the best things when you're wasted

sleep

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 05:15:59 GMT

let's just join forces

where you'll find me

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 19:46:38 GMT

the snow is coming UP
into my window
into my eyes
up my nose
filling my head,
getting me mangled
running round in circles
ground ground ground
born to be
lost
never found,
undiscovered, unsolved,
wasted and wounded
good bye goodbye, i'll jump i swear,
out the window, and into the snow
thenit'll be ME that flys UP
into your eyes,
and up your nose
god knows i've put enough up mine
and this is retribution, baby
so cover your ears, shield your eyes,
and plug your motherfucking nose
unless you want me after all

i've got all the time for you, love

retribution

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 03:18:56 GMT

and I'd still come home for you
if you asked me nicely
and I'd still fuck your brains out
in the back seat of your car
and I'd still buy you a beer
while you hit on the waitress
and I'd still puke my guts out
on your bathroom floor

and I'd still try to break your heart
because you always broke mine

it's warm in here

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 03:11:50 GMT

find out today that his friend hung himself..

how I wish sometimes that he could have let me in
but there's something wrong about me
a flaw
which I am blind to
but which everyone else sees clearly
mocking mark
something off with us
something out of tune
we had no range

some denials

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 00:05:15 GMT

not your lips
not your ass
certainly not the way you talk or laugh or sit carelessly in a chair
not your dizzy tendency to forget to call me
not your lack of any real interest in me
no
none of these things

C & B

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 17:01:16 GMT

Migrate to another finger,
Shifting slightly,
Moving slowly,
Make the journey, up and over,
Changing hands, and,
Feeling lonely.

Persistant aches,
Persist in aching,
Wring it out,
Wring it out.

Close your eyes, and I'll disappear for you.

Yuck Yuck Yuck, What Was I Thinking?

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 16:14:35 GMT

Powered by digust.
Fuelled by indignation.
Lesson has been learned,
With total motivation,
To not look back at all,
Since all that I would see,
Is a sad and desperate loser,
Who once was chasing me.

the list

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 22:31:38 GMT

He crosses them off, one by one,
A mocking check-mark beside each name.

Leave Me Alone [please]

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 01:54:14 GMT

Slipping away slowly and so perfectly timed,
This escape into the soft, dark vacancy of the mind.
Fade forgotten from the brightest, burning, spotlight,
I may certainly be blind, but I've never lost my sight.
Such complete isolation has never looked so good.
Trade everything (which is nothing) if you just say I should.

The Earliest

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 13:25:33 GMT

And it was missing,
Certain absence,
Felt so heavily wrong,
When we should have felt much differently.
And I know not why or when it left,
Or how, for that matter, either.
Just that it wasn't quite right,
And that something seemed off,
Which had previously been on,
Apparently.
Yet our options are most limited,
To re-tracing our steps,
In search of what we lost,
Or forgetting and pretending,
There may never have been anything,
Ever there at all.

Roll Me Away

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 17:10:19 GMT

"Took a look down a westbound road,
Right away I made my choice
Headed out to my big two-wheeler,
I was tired of my own voice
Took a bead on the northern plains
And just rolled that power on

Twelve hours out of mackinaw city
Stopped in a bar to have a brew
Met a girl and we had a few drinks
And I told her what I’d decided to do
She looked out the window a long long moment
Then she looked into my eyes
She didn’t have to say a thing,
I knew what she was thinkin’

Roll, roll me away,
Won’t you roll me away tonight
I too am lost, I feel double-crossed
And I’m sick of what’s wrong and what’s right
We never even said a word,
We just walked out and got on that bike
And we rolled
And we rolled clean out of sight

We rolled across the high plains
Deep into the mountains
Felt so good to me
Finally feelin’ free

Somewhere along a high road
The air began to turn cold
She said she missed her home
I headed on alone

Stood alone on a mountain top,
Starin’ out at the great divide
I could go east, I could go west,
It was all up to me to decide
Just then I saw a young hawk flyin’
And my soul began to rise
And pretty soon
My heart was singin’

Roll, roll me away,
I’m gonna roll me away tonight
Gotta keep rollin, gotta keep ridin’,
Keep searchin’ till I find what’s right
And as the sunset faded
I spoke to the faintest first starlight
And I said next time
Next time
We’ll get it right."

- Bob Seger

Award For Self-Over-Analyzation

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 01:08:52 GMT

And now somehow it's turned around.
I guess I must have missed it.
I guess I didn't notice,
The moment,
When directions changed,
When hearts rolled over,
And when your name lost all significance.

Or have I been temporarily blinded by my own will to forget all things painful?

allergic

Tue, 31 May 2005 03:54:37 GMT

about to sneeze
and forget all
in one blink
in one breathe
in one second
it's all gone
it's all done
it's all over
and you've lost
your place with me

bless you